Where my head has been…

Hello everyone and welcome back to the blog. I want to take the time to catch everyone up on a lot of the things that have been going on inside my head over the past 6 weeks or so in order to catch everyone up to where I am now and why I think after a nice long night of nose to the grind stone, I will be back to 100% come tomorrow.

So, ever since I moved out on December 30th, 2019 I have not really had all that much time to be able to focus on myself and get things in order that I have been wanting to. I thought that I would be able to move, work and do a couple classes in school while also adulting on the side and everything would work out fine.

It has in some ways, but not in others.

I have managed to keep some semblance of sanity together until I earlier this morning when I finally let it all out and was able to rant about my frustrations to my grandmother’s listening ear. It is not that no one has been there for me to listen to, it is just that up until now, here in Mercury in Retrograde (I will explain in a post tomorrow) that it finally came to a head with me finally being able to get out enough of the words, and have the right person there, saying all of the right things that has proven to me that there is one thing that I assumed all this time I was doing properly, but truly I was not…


I had not been prioritizing properly this whole time. I have had these vague ideas of goals and things that I wanted to achieve and until now nothing had fallen apart in order for me to notice that anything needed fixing. Then a few weeks ago a wheel must have come off the wagon (metaphorical), but I had not noticed for a while, and even when I did notice the missing wheel, I kept going instead of stopping and addressing it until I lost a second wheel and now I have been forced to stop and re-evaluate my situation. I have been feeling rather lost for weeks and part of me is blaming it on the change of scenery, some of me on the schooling, but the truth is…I am just not going about life with any order. Everything is all over the place and I think it is finally time to take that organization back. I owe this much to myself…and it will help me out in the long run.

So, what exactly is the plan for getting things back on track? Well, tonight I will be spending a fair amount of time going over my priorities and then applying them over the next several weeks and tweaking them constantly. I just need to get a format going for them, and soon everything else will fall into line and then my mental state will be looking up! Wish me luck on this and thank you all for reading my ramblings!

Published by mlevis1996

24, Father of Anti-Humanist Philosophy (The AntiJudgementalism Handbook (2020) and 2019 Meditations (2020))

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  1. Love this Marcus! 

    bring good news to the poor… bind up the brokenhearted… proclaim liberty to the captives… release the prisoners from darkness (Isaiah 61:1 NIV) from Yahoo Mail for iPhone

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