Hello everyone and welcome back to the blog. I am happy that a new week is upon us, but I have to say that I am really feeling the burn…burnout that is. School, Social Life and Work are not really the main problems here, but I have been noticing that with everything that has been going on, I have been running myself ragged. Working a lot (cause If i don’t work I don’t get paid), trying to have late nights at school (and being so tired I really do not accomplish much of anything) and trying to hangout with people (but either schedules do not align or I am to broke to do anything when we can get together.
My life is good. I am in a great place that I could not have imaged when I was younger…but I am also far more stressed, find myself getting angry at the littlest of things, and find myself having to apologize to my family because it appears to them that I am taking it out on them. I do not mean to, but life has been taking me that way as of right now. I am proud of all of the things I have accomplished, but I have had 0 time to relax or to myself since all of this craziness began back in September.
I wan hoping that reading week would be that source of proper relaxing, but it turned out that I got sick with a cold, and it really did not ACTUALLY allow me to relax one iota. I am at a loss sometimes for what to do…too much to do, not enough time to sleep, too much life going on all at once, all of it necessary.
I became attracted to things like Minimalism because I wanted it to help me justify cutting down on the “noise”. That noise of course being the number of decisions that I have to make in a given day, number of places I have to be, and can allow me to feel more present in the things that remain, because they are the things that I enjoy the most. I have not had time for any of that. I have not felt the desire to do any of that. That is 99% of the reason I have let the Angry Ranter Plays gaming channel slide and not have ANY uploads to it in a month or more. I still vlog daily, but the quality of the last few is slipping a bit…I am really just so tired…so goddamn tired.
I will be fine…I will take today to relax (even though I have homework to do for tomorrow afternoon), then get everything done tomorrow morning once I get to the university. I do not want to slip…but I am scared that is what is happening. I got this though. so do not worry.
Talk to you all again in a couple days!